♥

I love you with all my heart.

I want to say you were taken to soon, but everything happens for a reason right?

The pain you went through hit me hard, Raka even knows the pain too. I'm so sorry I couldn't help you, but at least I was there with you until the end.

I love you very much smokey R.I.P. May 17th 1pm

After i fill out my heart and actually want to tell someone how I feel what I'm so mad about right not you give me the message "Something went wrong"
FUCK yea something went wrong facebook you fucked up that's what and my lifes a fuckup. I'm not sending that damn message anymore if you don't have the capacity to take on a 1200 word essay bitch.

My mom said it's supposed to start snowing today.
And then my dumbass brother said I have to go to school anyways like he's my father or something.
He is beyond pissing me off right now.

I was staying after school today to finish my painting and he started a useless argument on some small thing which exploded into where was I that I got home so late for? It's not like he was even here when I got home. He was brainwashing my mom into thinking I wasn't staying at school and that she trusts me too much and I have ulterior motives or something.
I hate him.

And worst part is that he insults me all the time even when I point out to him in a composed way not to treat me like that and that hes mean and should stop calling me a fucking retard or and idiot or dumbass. He's so rude. He always needs to think he's right and prove that his is through baseless and stupid arguments that he thinks he wins. He said that I wasn't staying after school and I was doing something else because I told him it was none of his business when he asked me, because it really isn't. I hate when he asks me and I act secreative about it to 1. Watch how he tries to transform my situation into me doing something I'm not supposed to when I'm really not doing anything bad and 2. Prove him wrong. He went through this long process in front of my mom brainwashing her and saying you don't know what she was doing. All she said was that she was after school how can you believe that? And then she said "I'll call the school to confirm" That right there is such a slap to the face! She always believes him, he brainwashes her all the time and always suspects down below that I'm lying. Her need to go and confirm that I was at school shows that she doubts that I wasn't there at all. So SHE DOES agree with him when I REALLY was working hard on my painting after school and I ALWAYS tell her when I go out always! my stupid brother always has to act like I don't do what I say and I'm the worst or something. he isn't family or brother quality. He doesn't even respect me or act like he has any concern for me at all. He verbally assaults me all the time and always acts like I'm the dumb one who is so inferior and needs educating because I'm too dumb to understand anything.

Part of the reasons I want to leave for college I can't stand his outbursts and damn attitude. He has the worst attitude ever. And he doesn't understand that he's part of the reason that gets me depressed he's part of the reason that makes me not even want to be here and he doesn't notice it at all, he doesn't notice the hurt he puts on other people.
AND WORST of all my damn touchpad on my laptop is broken.